Sunday, June 27, 2010

...after a visit home


Some days I wish I had split personalities so I could live all the lives I would need to satisfy my many fascinations. I want to be a farmer, dancer, teacher, veterinarian, writer, artist, athlete, city girl, country girl, student, time traveler, and maybe mickey mouse (except I'm actually too tall). There is just too much to learn, see, and do to fit into one lifetime, but I'm on my way to checking off as much as I can.

I've been back home (in Texas) for only a few days after an excellent 3 week trip to NC and I have so much on my mind. Things I want for my life, places I want to go, things I want see, who I am exactly. It's all too much. But, that's me. I've always been like this. Here are some things I'm excited about.

Camping and Hiking
A few days after I made it to Asheville, my dad decided we were heading to the lake....and that's where it started. I love being outside! I love trees and beautiful views. I love being in the sun (well, most of the time). I fell right back into my 'country girl' mode. The girl who wanted to set up the tent, and sleep outside under the stars. I fished with my dad and sometimes just sat on the boat while he fished. We took rides on the country roads in his big truck. I drove with the windows down feeling the cool mountain air on my arms. Magic.

I also had a chance to go on a hike with my aunt. She lives in Wolf Laurel and very often hikes on the Appalachian Trail....since it practically runs through her back yard. It was a pretty steep hike for most of the time, but it was wonderful. The sights, smells, and sounds of the great outdoors are so incredible.

We talked about taking 2-3 day hike next summer. I'm nervous about it (well, nervous about running into crazy people), but I'm also excited for an outdoor adventure. I really wanted to visit the Toe River again and the Cradle of Forestry since it's one of my favorite places, but I ran out of time (and company). I'm just so excited about getting outside!

I ended up bringing my grandfathers old tent back to Texas with me. My brother and I used to take it to Lake Chatuga every summer when we went with our grandparents and cousins....It's probably been 10 years since the last time the tent has been used...I sure hope it's made well. I also brought a lantern and a camp stove that my dad gave me for Christmas about 5 years ago. I'm sorry to say neither have been used before. I hope we get some good use out of them in the next few years!

That brings me to...
Travel and Vacation
Evan and I have been talking a lot about going to the Grand Canyon next summer. I am so excited. We haven't made any definite plans yet, but I would love to take a road trip, stopping at campgrounds along the way - hiking a lot while we're there. This is one of my outdoor adventure dreams....along with visiting the Lightning Field. I'm just so excited. I'm going to be planning this all year to make sure we actually go!!!!

I just watched Sister of the Traveling Pants yesterday and I am ready for a trip to Greece too! So beautiful. Luckily, Evan wants to go too. 5/10 year wedding anniversary?

Money Money Money
While I was home, I had the chance to talk to my friends and family about money. I see that everyone is having a difficult time...not just us. One good friend suggested I read Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover. She told me that her sister had followed the plan and quickly pulled herself out of debt. Well, that sounds good to me!

Evan and I had already decided that we needed to seriously sit down and talk about our budget (well, Evan was finally on board....so it actually happened). I told him about this book and an hour later we were heading to Barnes and Noble to pick up a copy. Last night, I was lying in bed listening to Evan read the first 50 pages out loud to me. Sweet, right? Anyway, Evan and I are really excited about getting down to business paying off our debts and starting to save money. I'm so tired of being worried about money, but now I feel really hopeful about our financial future. I also feel great about the Doyle team.

...speaking of sports
Running
Last summer, I really got into running and so did Evan. We were planning to run the Houston half-marathon, but money and injuries got in our way. It has been really hard for me to push myself to run alone, but I have done it off and on since we stopped running together back in January.

My mom, however, has been amazing! She joined the Asheville Track Club and runs three times a week with the group. They are training to run the Bele Chere 5k in July. I am so proud of her and my sister-in-law who is running with her. I wish I could be there to do it with them.

While I was home, I tagged along with them on their running nights and now I'm trying to keep up with their training. That's close to running with someone...if I'm trying to keep up with their training schedule, right? Anyway, this morning, I got up and ran around the apartment complex: 8 min. job, 1 min. walk, 8 min. jog, 1 min. walk, 3 min. jog, walk. I did it, but dang it sure is hotter here than it is in Western NC!

Once Evan and I figure out our budget, I am planning to sign up for atleast one race nearby. It's just something I really want to accomplish. I've really started to enjoy running and how it makes me feel....I just have to kick the lazy days in the BEEhind!

Planning for the Future
I am so glad that Evan and I are starting to really talk and plan our future. I'm beginning to better understand the things I want for myself and he is too. That sure does make it a lot easier to talk about the future...when you have and idea of what to talk about. In the past week, we've talked about - babies, houses, food, budgets, locations, so many things! It's exciting to talk about the future when you aren't so worried about money. I mean we still need to worry about it, but having a plan of attack has taken a huge weight off our shoulders!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

nine lives




Yesterday morning was a scary one for me and my little boy cat, Pal. He's been crying lately over what we thought was a sore paw, but yesterday it got a lot more serious.

Pal is a big boy. He likes his food a lot, and most days is very impatient around feeding time. Yesterday morning, though, he was no where to be seen. I called him. Nothing. Rattled his food container. Nothing. I even poured food into his bowl and guess what? Nothing. After looking all through the apartment I finally found him in his litter box. He was there for almost 5 minutes and then came out crying.

It turns out he had a blockage (crystals forming in the body) that was making it hard for him to urinate. This is a serious disease in cats and can be fatal. I know this because my first cat died this way. So, of course, I immediately thought the worst and for most of the morning tears rolled down my face. When I took him to the vet, I could barely get the words out to explain what was going on.

$277 later, we are waiting on results from his urine sample to see what to do next. Can there please be 8 lives left?









Thursday, April 8, 2010

a million and one things

My mind has been working over time lately, pulling in every direction in existence and maybe creating new directions. I don't even know where to start. A list will be best. I think.

  1. I want to play soccer.
  2. Dance and dance and dance.
  3. I forgot how much I love Jack Johnson....because I just couldn't listen to him for a while. Now, that he's back in my life, though, I appreciate him that much more.
  4. I am sick of being angry. I know that when I feel out of control, the only thing I CAN control is my emotions....but it just doesn't feel that way.
  5. I want to be here and I want to be there. I don't want to do it, but I do. Can I just lie in the middle of the floor and listen to this song for hours?
  6. By the way, the song is I Don't Wanna Wait by Roli Golan
  7. I love my job, but I am not a good assistant. I am a reluctant leader. I try to hide it and pretend that I don't want it, but I do. I'm just scared.
  8. I need a "good" duplicate of myself to boss me around when I don't feel like running or eating the right food, or when I get lazy. She'll have rosy cheeks and a beautiful singing voice.
  9. Sometimes, I just want quiet. I can't get to a peaceful place too many days.
  10. Buddhism.
  11. Today, my kids had a music program at school. I wish you could have heard one of my 1st graders sing. I couldn't stop smiling.
  12. I still think it's a game.
  13. I am so happy that my choices have brought me to the place I am. I'm positive that there are people who think I missed out on something or that I didn't have as much fun. There are times when I convince myself as well. Then, I hear about bad decisions. The kind that put limitations where there should be no bounds. I am sad for you. More sad than I should be. I wish I could fix it. I wish I was more powerful than I am.
  14. I love helping kids learn to read. Letters, words, sentences - they are all amazing. Do you ever think, "this is huge!" I mean, babies grow inside bellies for goodness sakes! That's amazing......AMAZING! The Earth can run itself without anyone pushing play or setting an alarm. It's genius!
  15. 2012 might be scary.
My mind has run off too fast and taken all of my thoughts with it. This feels good though.

idance

I am a portable dance machine.....

I have been saving an itunes gift card since Christmas. I am a terrible saver in all aspects of my life. I save things that most people would throw away (I know this isn't news) for future craftiness. I hold onto feelings that should have been abandoned on a curb long ago. AND I save itunes cards until I find the perfect songs to buy.

Here's my purchase list for the last of my Christmas:
David Bowie: Let's Dance, Modern Love
Kool & the Gang: Hollywood Swinging
Pretenders: Don't Get Me Wrong
Rosi Golan: Album The Drifters and the Gypsy

And now since I'm home alone.....Dance party

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Good teaching day

Today, a little bit of my lost confidence in myself was handed back to me by 6 little first grade hands. I was la maestra today, and it was great! All this time I wasn't sure if I was ready or if I could handle a class room on my own again, but I did! A+ and a sticker on my chart.

It was just me and a sub today for reading and math. The boys were great and I feel like we got a lot done! I'm so proud of myself. Yay Mrs. Doyle!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

running, espanol, and jobs

I've come to realize that I don't really like typing. I want a blog, but I'm not sure that I want to blog. That sentence might only make sense to me. Actually, maybe I don't want to blog because it reminds me of what a slacker I have been. Let's blame it on this long winter. Good idea.

Running
I've started my training again. Solo. Evan is doing his own thing at the gym now. I went to a few classes and checked out the gym, but decided that I like running outside better. Also if I'm going to take a class, I want it to be a dance class....not a wanna-be dance class.

I really have completely restarted my training - back to week one phase one minus the shuffle. I ran my three days this week - big finish with 3 miles this morning. Not sure exactly what I'm training for yet, but I really liked how I felt and how my clothes felt when I was training for a half-marathon. So that's what I'm doing.....again. I will try to keep up with my blogging about running. I hope I can do this on my own!

Espanol
Evan and I are learning Spanish! We started Rosetta Stone this week and we've already learned a lot. It's funny that the words/sentences we've learned are a lot like my 1st graders' guided readers!

I was a little nervous on our 3rd lesson when, all of a sudden, we had to move closer to the screen to see all the words they were throwing at us. We struggled through 2 parts of the lesson and gave up for the night. Then on our next lesson laughed our heads off when we realized we had been on the wrong unit! No wonder we were having such a hard time!!!!!

Jobs
I don't have official news to report on this subject, but I feel like change is in the air. Evan and I have both applied for jobs for the next school year. I will more than likely be the color guard instructor for his school and as usual I have mixed feelings about that job. We'll see. I say that a lot. I guess I need to start practicing my 5, 6, 7, 8.


Friday, February 5, 2010

ILMJ day

Yes, today is I-Love-My-Job day! Hopefully to be repeated frequently in the coming months!

I really like the people I'm working with, the students, and I definitely see and feel the value in my job! I love this feeling.