a million and one things

My mind has been working over time lately, pulling in every direction in existence and maybe creating new directions. I don't even know where to start. A list will be best. I think.

1. I want to play soccer.
2. Dance and dance and dance.
3. I forgot how much I love Jack Johnson....because I just couldn't listen to him for a while. Now, that he's back in my life, though, I appreciate him that much more.
4. I am sick of being angry. I know that when I feel out of control, the only thing I CAN control is my emotions....but it just doesn't feel that way.
5. I want to be here and I want to be there. I don't want to do it, but I do. Can I just lie in the middle of the floor and listen to this song for hours?
6. By the way, the song is I Don't Wanna Wait by Roli Golan
7. I love my job, but I am not a good assistant. I am a reluctant leader. I try to hide it and pretend that I don't want it, but I do. I'm just scared.
8. I need a "good" duplicate of myself to boss me around when I don't feel like running or eating the right food, or when I get lazy. She'll have rosy cheeks and a beautiful singing voice.
9. Sometimes, I just want quiet. I can't get to a peaceful place too many days.
10. Buddhism.
11. Today, my kids had a music program at school. I wish you could have heard one of my 1st graders sing. I couldn't stop smiling.
12. I still think it's a game.
13. I am so happy that my choices have brought me to the place I am. I'm positive that there are people who think I missed out on something or that I didn't have as much fun. There are times when I convince myself as well. Then, I hear about bad decisions. The kind that put limitations where there should be no bounds. I am sad for you. More sad than I should be. I wish I could fix it. I wish I was more powerful than I am.
14. I love helping kids learn to read. Letters, words, sentences - they are all amazing. Do you ever think, "this is huge!" I mean, babies grow inside bellies for goodness sakes! That's amazing......AMAZING! The Earth can run itself without anyone pushing play or setting an alarm. It's genius!
15. 2012 might be scary.

My mind has run off too fast and taken all of my thoughts with it. This feels good though.